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[Thursday the 3rd
]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com giddy]

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up...

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess
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drop the hate [Tuesday the 25th
]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com ditzy]

...and everyone...forgive each other.

Sofa
-xoxo-
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made for tv movie [Sunday the 23rd
]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com disappointed]

My life is just like this made for TV movie. Except for today. Because for that little while baby, everything was so perfect. For those few hours, i was yours and you, mine. I know before and after, nothing seemed right, as always, but for me, those few moments are worth waiting for all over again. You are so goddam amazing and loving me. I appreciate your every breath, every hope and every tear. ... I know it gets hard sometimes. And i can tell by that little tone in your voice that it doesnt feel like enough. For that i am truly sorry. I cant make it better, i hate it so much, but life wont allow me to have that power. I guess all i want to say is, you dont have to be on your own. I want to feel with you, and i want you to still feel me with you, even when im far away. ... You kept me going all day until i saw you baby. When i woke up this morning, i thought i would die until i remembered in who's arms i would fall. I could write poems and pieces about you, that would be so happy and real, the ink would leak through the paper, words being erased forever. Just like what we were together today, something so powerful it vanished forever, except it hangs somewhere in our souls, only for you and i to know. We created love to inflame forever and always.

Tomorrow, i will try my bestest to get to come to your place. Ill take the bus there if i have to. Ill walk if i must. Ill sail on a boat across a sea of my tears if that's what it takes. But i will be with you. And if by some demonic powers i cannot go, i will miss you dearly baby. I dont expect you to come all the way here again. In fact, i want to thank you for that too. Thank you for loving me enough to come see me. Thank you for not giving up, even when you want to. Thank you for hoping with me, even when we know we're just silly kids, wanting a chance to be understood, wanting people to understand that are we simply are, is in love. Thank you for knowing that even though we're hoping, it's hopeless.

I love you in a place where there is no space or time
I love you for my life
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Dont you wish your girlfriend was wrong like me? [Thursday the 20th
]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com chipper]

I bought a book that i think you might like sweety.
I need to keep knitting.
And i need to finish your scarf, because i have many MANY to get done.

Sofa
-xoxo-
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bring the heat [Tuesday the 18th
]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com bouncy]

Im looking to maybe catch up on some stuff today.
I really cant wait to live a little.
And for some strange reason, im really darn hungry.

Dance little ballerina, under the moonlight glow.

Sofa
-xoxo-
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[Monday the 17th
]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com bitchy]

Im not really feeling bitchy, it's just best word that summarizes it right now for me.
Im tired of constantly being away from you.
I cant wait to be close to you, like i wanna be.
Im tired of having to wait for next Sunday.
I cant wait to watch as many hockey games as i can with you.
Im gonna find something to do now.
Because when it's not snowing, i really have nothing to comfort the yearning.

Sofa
-xoxo-
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[Saturday the 15th
]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com artistic]

Your Birthdate: September 20

Your birth on the 20th day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your reading.
The 2 energy provided here is very social, allowing you to make friends easily and quickly.
Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group.

You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection.
You are very prone to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil.
It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in.
When things are going well, you can go just as far the other way and become extremely affectionate.


Im pretty sure that the above is scaringly accurate. What do you think?

Baby
Your Birthdate: November 7

Born on the 7th day of month gives you a tendency to be something of a perfectionist and makes you more individualistic in many ways.
Your mind is good at deep mental analysis and complicated reasoning.
You are very psychic and sensitive, and you should usually follow your hunches.

You may not take orders too well, so you may want to work alone or in a situation where you can be the boss.
This birthday gives a tendency to be somewhat self-centered and a little stubborn.


Steph
Your Birthdate: July 18

Your birthday on the 18th day of the month suggests than you are one who can work well with a group, but still remain someone who needs to maintain individual identity.
There is a humanistic or philanthropic approach to business circumstances in which you find yourself.
You may have good executive abilities, as you are very much the organizer and administrator.

You are broad-minded, tolerant and generous; a compassionate person that can inspire others with imaginative ideas.
Some of your feelings may be expressed, but even more of them are apt to be repressed.
There is a lot of drama in your personality and in the way you express yourself to others.
Oddly enough, you don't expect as much in return as you give.
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kids will be skeletons [Saturday the 15th
]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com annoyed]

Yes i am annoyed. Life can be a bitch to so many people. I hate the world for breaking you into a trillion pieces.

My head is overwhelmed with tons of homework.
It feels a little bit weird but then again it's ok.
I have friends to save me.
I have love and sillyness to keep me going. har har.

Sofa
-xoxo-
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Loser [Monday the 3rd
]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com worried]

Look who's not on the honor roll.

*insert link here while pointing to self*

Sofa
-xoxo-
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the way it is [Thursday the 22nd
]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com tired]

So i had work today. For my second day i did pretty darn good. I larned a lot of new stuff, made new friends and im loving the place. The customers are nice, and they genuinely care about what they're coming to buy. They're interested in all the functions of the different ingredients, it's nice. I feel more and more comfortable with the job and the work involved, and closing is really easy, we're usually done by 9. It was really quiet in the store today, but also the mall generally speaking. It was almost weird. Hopefully tomorrow it's a lot more fun and exciting so i can reach my goal. ♥
I just want to say thank you to everyone for my birthday tuesday. Everything i got was so freaking amazing, this years presents were by far the best ones. But the people that were with me made me so happy too. The feeling in the air was nice and perfect. I love you all for making me feel worth it. ♥♥ Saturday will be party time. Good times, i swear.

Sofa
-xoxo-
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Miami Ink [Tuesday the 20th
]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com quixotic]

I just wanna say thank you to everyone who has taken the time to love me.

Sofa
-xoxo-
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LEAVE WITHOUT A TRACE [Thursday the 8th
]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com mellow]

All my words are just fragments of who i was and am becoming. Words keep floating around my tired mind.


Make your choice, because although today matters,
our shadow will forever race our soul.
In the end they will end up together.
They will coincide.
Hypocrisy will guide us to think otherwise.
Like a dying animal we will silence ourselves,
and watch what we have created crumble away.


Steph, check my userinfo. I just fucking think you're awesome, yo. =)
Babe.♥

Sofa
-xoxo-
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LETS DIE WITH OUR SECRETS [Tuesday the 6th
]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com loved]

Yes, i feel loved right now. Talking makes a lot of things better. So much better.
Ive just gotten home from school. It was an ok day. My first class was one hell of a drag. That class always is. Oh and today, our psych teacher decided she'd bring her son in there for half an hour and have him sit at the front of the class. Brilliant. There she was talking about rape and urinating on bodies with her 5 year old all innocent sitting there. Smart woman, i swear she is.
Afterschool we hung out for a bit, although i wasnt all there i have to say. Today wasnt a really good day for my thoughts to roam free. Sorry to all who witnessed me. I feel fine now. ♥
Baby, thank you.

Sofa
-xoxo-
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Breathe [Thursday the 18th
]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com lazy]

So we're trying to get my room done. I cleared some stuff out yesterday but i have a long way to go. It feels like such a heavy project too. I see it as this huge long process and i would love love love to finish it before school starts. If all goes well, i can start painting on Sat being that we're buying the paint tonite. We'll see how that goes but again, if all goes well, i should be done my room technically...by Wednesday. Let's hope. I have a personal interior designer in Steph though so that should help. (I hope you're feeling better today darling.)

Im sitting here on the comp while my sister plays "Juiced" On PS2. Im getting hypnotized by those engines sounds on that game. Someone come and save me.

Today should be a pretty relax day. I expect to do nothing, have my afternoon tea and maybe knit some since im so behind on my lover's scarf. Tonite is supposed to be Canadian Tire for the Debbie Travis paint =). And since my daddy is off tomorrow, i do believe we are going to see the planes fly up, up and away. I know that it's short notice, but if either Steph or my lover wanna join, please give me a call before let's say...5 tonite? And if you wanna both come all the better. It's just a nice place to go to. And i miss you guys and stuff.

Each winter, alone in the pitiless ice deserts of Antarctica, deep in the most inhospitable terrain on Earth, a truly remarkable journey takes place as it has done for millennia. Emperor penguins in their thousands abandon the deep blue security of their ocean home and clamber onto the frozen ice to begin their long journey into a region so bleak, so extreme, it supports no other wildlife at this time of year. In single file, the penguins march blinded by blizzards, buffeted by gale force winds. Resolute, indomitable, driven by the overpowering urge to reproduce, to assure the survival of the species.
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[Sunday the 7th
]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com indifferent]

to know that you feel the same i do
is a three-fold utopian dream

i need you to know that i care
and i miss you
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I so rock... [Wednesday the 3rd
]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com cheerful]

Heyllo everyone.

Yesterday night was pretty quiet after Andrew left for supper at home. I basically sat around, and worried a whole lot about all kinds of shit. So many thoughts going through my head these days. So many different ideas and opinions swimming up there. The point is now, i'm feeling fine.

Yes, yes, i have mood icons and you have some too. Difference? Mine are cooler. I chose Scarlett Johannson because she is a goddess. And yes at the moment i am feeling cheerful. Are you all so very jealous. Steph, finally maybe i could be the one to help you with this. =) And baby i can make you one too, i found an LP on.e ♥

I had the worse tummy ache this morning. I've never had it that bad before. But it's gone now. I got a food rub. *nods*.

Toodles.
Sofa
-xoxo-
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[Sunday the 31st
]

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This is a rating community for the hot and intelligent. Applicants must be 14+. Application isn't long. Apply today!
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peach [Saturday the 30th
]
[ mood | weird ]

I feel so strange lately. I feel so detached from those i love, even when they're right here beside me. I feel like i miss everyone, like i need to be loved. I hate that in a bitter way because i feel like my life is good but i fear losing them. Yes, i still do. I sometimes ask how people can tolerate me. I sometimes feel like i need to be better at who i am. I feel like i fail people, especially lately. I think there's two people who keep me going, even though i sometimes fear losing even them. Steph is like that thing that helps me breathe when i feel the world press down on my chest. She's like the extra puzzle piece that's missing on certain days, and she fits so perfectly. She has this bluntness that brings me back to earth in such harshness i cant help but love it. I feel that everytime we talk. I only hope i can do the same for her, make her know that everything WILL be fine. I always want to be the one who makes her laugh after a long moment of stress. She does that for me, in her own little ways. I thank her and cherish her. ♥ While Steph helps me breathe, she can only do so because Andrew brought life to me on a silver platter. He offered it to me, and he made it for the first time seem worth it. He softened the sharp broken edges and mended it all back together again. He loves me so much, i dont even deserve it. But i'm going to appreciate it, and thank TPTB every night and every morning for it, because he is truly my gaurdian angel. He watches me cry, and that only makes me feel like maybe it isnt all that bad. I love him. ♥ My strength comes from them, they are strong for me, for i am weaker than i seem. My life is good because of them. They needed to know that. - - Yet, i'm afraid of loosing even them, of loosing that good feeling i get after the storm. Because if one day i wake up and my world is a storm, i will surely die.

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clubbing yo. [Sunday the 24th
]
Yes Steph. We shall club and have a blast.

I bid you goodbye.

Sofa
-xoxo-
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big brother [Friday the 15th
]
It turns out my cousin happend to read my LJ. And it tujrns out that he misunderstood what i said. I said something to the effect that his girlfriend and him are on and off, and that the whole aspect of love shouldnt be so hard on a person. I'm aware that ironically enough, he probably wont read this. But i said those things because i love him. I said those things because i'm fucking fed up of seeing him hurt everytime they break it off. I know he loves her. He loves her so much that he'd do pretty much anything for her. And that's an amazing thing, but it's not supposed to hurt like that. I love how happy he is when he's with her, she makes him so happy. but i hate when he's without her and he's just empty inside. Jo, t'a mal compris. Oui j'aime pas le fait que vous etes pas steady. mais tu prend ca de la mauvaise facon. J'aime pas ca parceque ca me fait de la peine pour toi. Tu merite detre avec la fille de tes reves toujours, et non "on and off". je t'aime vraiment fort Jo, pis les mots que t'a lu, c'etait de la frustration de ma par parceque te voir triste c'est dure pour moi, pis je sais qu'etre en amour, c'est beau, mais seulement si on EST avec la personne qu'on aime. Je veut maime pas imaginer la douleur que tu resens quand vous n'etes pas ensembles. Je t'aime, pis je serait tjrs ta petite soeur. Pis laisse moi pas, j'ai besoin de mon grand frere. ♥ J'espere que toi pis kath ca DURE, parceque tu merites l'amour plus que moi je l'ai jamais meriter.

Clicker pour voi mon grand frere ♥Collapse )
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Stephanie is a great homegirl [Wednesday the 6th
]
You rock my socks off. I have a brand new layout for the summer. Check it out!

Sofa
-xoxo-
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i promise [Tuesday the 5th
]
I feel like i'm ready for the week. Take me on mr. humidity!

- little drops of rain whispers of the pain, tears of love lost in the days gone by - Collapse )
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i'm the cherry on her sundae, she said so! [Friday the 24th
]
Well, today i found out i'm probably taking some dance classes, finally. Fucking yes! I'm looking forward to it.
These past few days have been hectic, and worrisome, but i'm dealing. I have a shitty schedule for school and i'm sad, but it's ok, cuz i'm gonna drop that late Mon/Wed class. I'll do my 8 courses next semester.
My cousin has got this thing going on with his currently ex girlfriend, where they break-up and get back together at least 5 times a month. Now, i may be inconsiderate here, but that sounds absurd to me and does it not get to a point when enough is enough? How is he not fed up of the looping track here? I used to think they loved each other, but now i think it's just become routine and as much pain as it's causing them, they're kind enjoying it. Sounds insane but i would not be surprised, i swear to you i wouldn't be.
I know own a new shirt, thanx to my gorgeous lover. More than the shirt, i loved the thought. To think you thought of me made my life seem ever brighter. Now i feel so sexy in black. Steph you're gonna like the shirt. =) it's glittery. Also, my baby stopped by. he tried to pull a fast one on me, but i'm way too quick. Like swooooosh. You can't beat me, who you kidding? ♥♥
My daddy told me he loves when i sit by the computer at night while he plays golf. He says he yearns for that moment now. he described it as a mid-life crisis, it just added the millionth smile to my extra bright day. Thank you daddy-cool.
It's gonna be humid and hot demain. Good luck with that moving Steph, and i sincerely mean it. =S

Hey, so are you guys on the same team or something? You've got the same bikes?
*awkward pause*
*awkward shuffling*
*stares*
Well i guess you aren't up for a race then?
*walking away in desperation*
*giggles*

We're so evil.

Sofa
-xoxo-
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the heart [Monday the 13th
]
[ mood | amused ]

So i was sitting here tonite and this thought came to me.
The heart is something that keeps us alive, feeds our bodies to stay alive. Technically, that's the way it is, but if you look at it figuratively, it's no different. Most people, for sure, follow their hearts rather than listen to their minds. The heart is a powerful thing that allows us to feel and love and hate and cherish and crumble. The heart allows us to feel emotions in such a way that we can literally feel like we are crumbling, even though it is just a feeling. That feeling becomes so strong that we describe it as being real.
I think that the power our hearts hold shows us that no emotion is wasted as long as it is felt. And emotions are always felt, even when they are repressed. Because repressing is an emotion too. Silly are those who think they're macho because they hold back tears. Our tears are the tears of life. Life is fed by the heart. The heart lets you feel pain, enough to cry. And the whole thing is a cycle.

And it goes on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on...

Duracel. ♥

Sofa
-xoxo-

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Feeling like the glue has come off my wings [Sunday the 5th
]
[ mood | hot ]

Football is coming up in 3 months and a week or so. Joy. Pure joy.

Sofa
-xoxo-

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